Life is really hectic right now. Professionally I'm gearing up to go on secondment in just three weeks time. I'm really excited to go and learn new skills and meet new people, but it's also happened really quickly and there's a load of stuff to sort out. Academically I have two weeks until I hand in my dissertation proposal and it has really got my head in a spin, I'm finding it really difficult to narrow down my topic area and navigate all the methodological and philosophical considerations that go into research. In fact if I'm being frank it's a total head-fuck. Finally there's the London Winter Run in two weeks. I had so many good intentions for this race, but the rest of life got in the way and now I'm not totally sure I could run 10km. Oh, and there's also all the normal life stuff that needs to be handled.
When life gets like this it's really hard not to get overwhelmed, stressed out and end up not doing anything. I find myself panicking I've not done enough, feeling like I'm not good enough and overthinking all the ways in which I could fail and it would be all my fault. Type A in overload with a healthy does of anxiety and exhaustion, it's something I'm very familiar with. While I am still working on my coping strategies there's one mantra that I've been coming back to time and again...
Do what you can in the time that you have.
I'm not totally sure where this one came from, possibly (probably) my Mum, but it's something I've found myself chanting time and again when it comes to my life, and studying in particular. For me it's all about accepting that there's not limitless time and being ok with that. It's about working smart and feeling comfortable that I've given the best I can in the light of everything else that's going on. It's a mantra that's applicable to everything that's going on in my life at the moment, whether it's work, study or training.
I'm not going to bore you with my academic and work plans here, but I will share my training plans - how I'm going to do what I can in the time that I have - because I know that's something a lot of people struggle with. I try not to put too much pressure on myself when it comes to training at times like these, my main priority will always be work and study, so now isn't the time to have lofty training goals, if I can get out the door and run then that is good, it doesn't matter how far I run or how fast I do it. Likewise with classes, I am not in a place to do any really heavy duty classes (being ill really took it out of me and I've barely trained for weeks), but if I can get to a nice chilled yoga class then I give myself points. This week I'd like to get in three runs, a class at BarreCore (which I've been meaning to try for ages!) and at least one yoga class, but ideally two (that's as much about stress relief as fitness). There's a plan, but nothing's too prescribed, I am doing what I can in the time that I have, in the context of everything else in my life.