Over the last year or so I've struggled with blogging. Really since March last year when I walked out of a difficult relationship and started a new adventure on my own. I'd been building up to leaving for quite some time, and I'd imagined that when I was free I'd have the time to dedicate myself to blogging. I'd make my blog really good. What actually happened was that life got crazy busy. I was having loads of fun reconnecting with my friends, working out what I wanted my life to look like and, one year ago yesterday, meeting someone great, that the blog took a back seat. Then I started my MSc and it got pushed even further down the agenda.
I started this 'blog every day' project in an attempt to reconnect with blogging. While I've failed miserably to actually blog every day, it has made me think hard about my blog, what it means to me and what stories I want to tell. On reflection, over the last year or so I've been wandering around a little aimlessly when it comes to the purpose of my blog. I never set out to be a fitness blogger, I sort of fell in to that when I fell in love with blogging, it was incident rather than intention. Thinking back to the original purpose of this blog, I started writing things down almost as a diary, a way to remember the good things that happened in a life that really was very hard. A lot has changed since then, and maybe that's why I've lost my focus.
I like to write. I enjoy sharing my life. But I need to refocus and workout what I want this space to be, which is a process in itself. I love the idea of the blog as the diary. A place to share your thoughts, your passions and what happened in your day. I like the idea of a blog being a little unpolished, a scrapbook of pictures you've taken and things you like. An extension of the scrapbooks I kept as a child. I like the idea of a blog as an archive. I don't think I'll ever be an expert, but I suspect I'll be an essayist. I don't think my story is that interesting, but I'd still like to record it. I don't think it will be easy to decide what this space will be, but I'm looking forward to trying to find out. To thinking about what and how I want to share my life. To forming my online life in both a more and less deliberate way than I have done to life. To really sharing rather than posting for the sake or it, or posting what I think I should post - things I have been more than guilty of in the past. To thinking about what I like and don't like. To deciding how to record my life.